I have less than a year to seriously figure out what to do with my future. It scares me as hell, because I can make a huge mistake very easily. I feel so lost! I?m not sure if I could handle the pressure of film industry, but I definitely do not want to spend the rest of my life behind a desk. I need a job which require a lot of creativity.
Being scared and wondering about mistakes are the kind off things that mix around rational thinking and gut instinct to steer you in the decision making choices continuously coming towards you in life... Why don't you try to meet some people in the field locally, and see if you can get a taste of what its all really like.
Even if the polish film industry isn't where you want to be necessarily, it wont hurt to see that end of it... filmmakers around the world are similar, and it can help to see it in a smaller industry; and you might find there are some exciting things going on in your turf also... BUT, going "outside" is quite a valuable experience as well.
The whole point is to find something that you love doing; and many find out after some time of pursuit that what they thought they want isn't what they enjoy, and they find it hard to move out of it... others relish at the excitement of new experiences and the process of learning.
That?s so unfair! I wouldn?t like to end up as assistant to bringing coffee or something.
I think what Mark meant was to work as a camera assistant position... which is not about bringing coffee, its about supporting the director of photography in the camera dept.
the 1st AC (assistant camera) is kind of the boss of the camera dept (under the DP) whose primary funcion is to pull focus and maintain the camera
the 2nd AC is in charge of supporting the 1st with all his immediate "gear needs" and also slating the shots and taking camera notes
the loader is like the Best Boy of camera_ he loads magazines and also orders equipment
The operator does just that... in smaller industries, usually the DP operates, in bigger industries, the operator is like the right hand man on-set for the DP (the gaffer being his left hand or vice-versa) and "executes" the shot with the entire support team...
Anyway, I mention this because getting a position like this would be a worthwhile experience to see if you like the whole "work" aspect of the jobs.
I personally know a lot of women camera assistants who are tremendously good at their jobs; I've had mixed responses from them in terms of how difficult it has been for them in "a man's world" -- some I think have had a tougher time because they've felt they had to "prove" to the boys they could play just as well/better, others I think had an easier time because they told me "they didn't care about that" and just went on and did it...
Anyway, trust that you'll make the right decision for you ultimately, and in the meantime EXPLORE...
Hope this is helpful !