The thing I do look forward to with every copy of The American Cinematographer lies in the last page. Reading the many blunders made over the lifetime of a career has always given me some amount of solace and confidence when trying to push the work just that little bit further while trying to make sure it doesn't fall off the other side of the cliff.
Which brings me my point, and question. I shot a commercial recently. It turned out to be one of those shoots where the agency in my opinion -- more so then usual-- killed any potential it had to it looking credible. It was one of those projects which had me scrambling back to my past works to remind myself that I am half decent at what I do. or did. I'm not sure anymore. Good sense and experience tells me that it is a Ludacris thought to entertain
Now, while it didn't look bad, I knew I could have done better. So much better. Which does make it somewhat my shortcoming. It wasn't a singular blunder which defined it but rather a culmination of everything, not cinematographic related, which defined its look. I know the wealth of experience here would attest to the importance of the many various dept which has an affect on the work that cinematographers do. And managing it all successfully is what separates the good from the ugly.
I'll stop short of making this sound like the need for group therapy (although I hope you guys don't hold it against me for coming here with that exact motive).
In my search for some amount of comfort, fully knowing that this will pass with business as usual resuming the moment I start the next project, I'm curious to know how other cinematographers deal with the feeling of not being good enough, by the standards we place on ourselves (healthy or not) on a given project.